The room is dark and quiet.
It’s a time I’ve longed for all day.
I am curled up in the cool cottony sheets, finally resting after a long, stressful, and tiresome day.
I feel a quick jab in my side followed by a kick in my leg.
I look over, bleary eyed, and see him tossing and turning in his sleep.
He flails to one side, pushing me closer to the edge.
He yanks the covers closer to his chest, pulling them off of me at the same time.
My hopes of a quiet peacful night are shattered.
I know that the next few hours will bring me tug of wars with the sheets and boxing matches with toddler arms.
I sigh, releasing a heavy breath, enveloped with the thoughts of a restful night, comfortable in my bed.
I reach over and wrap my arms around him.
He settles in close and rests his head on my shoulder, where it’s fit perfectly since birth.
My heart swells knowing that he’s here, wrapped in me safely.
I lay there watching him.
His eyes flutter in and out of dreams.
His breaths slow as he calms from the tossing and turning.
His tiny fingers reach under the pillow and find mine, wrapping ever so gently around them.
In my heart I know that these moments are fleeting.
I know that before I blink he will not want to lay here with me or cuddle in close or hold my hand.
So for now, I let him stay with me.
I let him snuggle in close and yank the covers from me.
I gladly give up the quiet night of sleep if it means I can cuddle one more time with my baby.
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Kimberly
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Hi, my name is Kimberly! I am a wife of 1 and mom to 4. I'm a social media addict and book lover. This blog is a raw and honest look at life through my eyes. I capture the moments as I fumble through motherhood, marriage, and my new graphic design career. I am sometimes funny, a bit sarcastic, and always sleep deprived.
Twitter: AlisonSWLee
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That’s how I felt when the toddler regressed and started sleeping in our bed when he turned 2.
Two months later though, back to his room he went
Twitter: queenofchaosmom
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We had the exact same night. I can’t complain too much, though. When her little body fit perfectly in the curve of my side and her little arm curved around mine, my heart melt a little and sleep didn’t seem so important. Your words captured my feelings perfectly.
Twitter: UniquelyEN
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It’s that sweet little sleeping child that will get me every time. I agree I just can’t say ‘no’ when my kids want to come and cuddle with me. I know way too quickly they won’t even want to be around me.
Good for you to just soak him up and his cuddles right up.
Twitter: adayinmollywood
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Okay, you’re officially giving me baby fever. hehehe.
Bedtime is just the best, isn’t it? In more ways than one.
Twitter: CourtneyKirklnd
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Yep. I have to remind myself of this on the nights where Noah won’t stay in his bed. He’s been regressing a bit since finding out about the baby, so rather than scream and fight and force him to stay put, we just acknowledge that one day (sooner rather than later) he’s not going to want to sleep in our room. It’s certainly frustrating sometimes, but I can sleep when I’m dead, right?
Bedtime cuddles are the best! There are some nights when my kids are fast asleep I will go in their rooms and cuddle in next to them.
Hold on tight to those cuddles and snuggles for sure. Baby C has never been much of a snuggler. But she has recently learned to give great hugs.
Twitter: mommyslounge
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How precious. I feel exactly the same when my girls come in the room in the middle of the night. I want to leave and I don’t want to leave at the same time. Nighttime cuddles end too soon.
This is the exact reason that I let my toddler climb in with me.
Hmm…it seems that our toddlers are related.
Twitter: themommymess
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Haha! I laughed when I read the line about the quick jab and foot, so true! But, I do it every night so I can snuggle.
Lanagan is a kicker & blanket thief as well. I like that you just gave in and enjoyed the moment. Sometimes I forget to do that when I just would like my bed kid-free. It’s like this strange thing…on one end you secretly love that they’re there, on the other hand you just want a good nights sleep.
I struggle with this. We have finally moved D to his bed, but I end up on his floor around 3 am many days. And then I don’t even get the cuddles
My kids have never wanted to crawl into our bed so I always try and soak up the cuddles at bedtime.
My 2-year-old comes for morning cuddles… around 6 am she calls to me from her room or wanders over (if her door was left open) to nurse for a bit and then snuggle beside me until we wake up around 8 am. I’m enjoying it, even if I don’t sleep very well for those last two hours of the night, because I know it will stop sometime soon, as you say.
Twitter: a_lifeofourown
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That’s so sweet. Now that my girl is 10 months old, I can’t wait for the day where she’ll slow down again and cuddle with me, if just for a few minutes.
Twitter: FarewellStrangr
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I love those cuddles, even when I’m tired. But when I’m really tired all I want is a quiet, empty bed, even though I know this time is so short.