The hustle and bustle of the holiday season is over. A new year is sitting on the horizon, waiting to be devoured.
It’s a perfect time to reflect on what this past year has brought us. The good, the bad, the tears, the joys, the challenges, the achievements.
The month my baby boy transitioned to his big boy bed.
The month I vowed to take back my happiness.
The month I knew I needed to make some changes around here.
This month flew by for me. We saw our peanut during an ultrasound and I pictured our future together.
I also flew to Nashville to attend the Blissdom ’12 conference. Finally being able to meet these amazing women in person was a highlight of my year.
March was a difficult month for me. I struggled with so much internally. I knew that I was losing a part of myself, hidden beneath the “mommy” mask, and I needed to find me again.
I was also faced with an uncertainty of where situations and relationships stood. I wanted to move forward, desperately, but knew that I had to do it on my own terms, when my heart was ready. And I wasn’t always certain that it was ready.
And then this little man turned three and my heart nearly broke. Time has flown by so quickly and I just want to hold on to these moments. Forever.
April was a big month for me. HUGE, really. My biggest boy, my first baby, turned twelve. ::And I die:: We also had some struggles and frustrating moments, but we are learning to push through and figure out what works best. It’s a tough age. Definitely harder than the toddler years, for sure.
April was also the month that I finally followed a dream of mine. I opened my own design business, offering blog and web design. I love what I do and look forward to continuing with it as time goes on.
This was a hard month for me. It was busy. And hectic. As I entered the last month of my pregnancy, my body couldn’t keep up with what my mind needed it to do. I felt like I was spread too thin over different areas. I finally learned to push everything aside and focus on what was truly important. We spent a lot of time outside enjoying each other as a family and I was able to get my smile back.
This month was a whirlwind. It was spent preparing and counting down for the arrival of our newest little love.
I was tired. And very close to losing my mind on most days. I was learning how to juggle 4 children, all while adjusting to life with a newborn again. Most of the month was spent loving on this little guy, and really, can you blame me?
This month seemed to hit me like a ton of bricks. I was struggling to get back to me again and learning how to smile from my heart. Then I learned that I needed surgery and had to go in for a procedure.
The boys kept me laughing (and on my toes) and I was able to relax again. We spent a lot of time together enjoying the end of the summer.
The boys continued to keep my on my toes and I continued to beg for more wine to make it through the day. More time was spent outdoors, soaking in the last bits of warm afternoons left over from summer. We even had a “best day ever“.
We saw a LOT of rain during this month. I complained about a few days of rain in the beginning of the month. Mother Nature laughed at me because then we were hit with a hurricane. It was a scary night that I will NEVER forget. Sandy tore our state apart in her wrath.
We took a much needed break from the stress and worries and frustrations of life here. We packed the family up and headed to Walt Disney World for a week of happiness, smiles, laughter, and magic.
When tragedy hit, it was a huge reminder to spend our time in the moment. And that’s what I’ve been doing.
And that brings this year to a close. It has brought us some struggles, heartache, and pain, but it has also given us some amazing memories. Our baby boy was welcomed into our family. We made endless memories. We smiled, laughed, and loved. With all of our hearts.
I’m ready to face 2013. With my heart wide open.