Just a few short hours ago the house was full of energy. Laughter was heard bouncing off of every wall. Wails of happiness intertwined with squeals of joy and barreled through each hallway, spilling over into every room.
But now there was a quiet hush throughout the house.
Darkness filled the room and I could just barely make out your face from the sliver of light creeping in through the cracked door.
You were snugly curled up in my arms, completely asleep.
The only sound I could hear now was you.
Your peaceful sighs as you fell deeper into dreamland.
Your tiny grunts as you wiggled closer to my neck.
Your soft breaths as you slowly inhaled and exhaled against my skin.
I watched you, completely captivated by your sweetness, your softness, and your innocence.
I looked at you, committing every curve of your chubby cheek and every soft wisp of baby fine hair to memory.
I softly touched your arm, the warmth of your skin instantly warming my own.
I’m not sure how long we sat in that rocking chair. Maybe a few minutes. Maybe ten. Maybe an hour.
I was completely focused on you.
In those moments, time stood still for me.
I wish I could keep you this little, this sweet, this delicate, forever.
I know that you will grow up and eventually you won’t need me as much as you do now. That thought terrifies me.
I know that you will grow and learn about the world around us, losing your innocence along the way. But I will always look in your eyes and see the tiny baby that you are right now.
In those moments I was able to push those fears away.
I was focused on you, right here, in that moment.
I took it all in and locked it deep within my heart.
You are perfect, my sweet little boy. You always will be.
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Kimberly
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Hi, my name is Kimberly! I am a wife of 1 and mom to 4. I'm a social media addict and book lover. This blog is a raw and honest look at life through my eyes. I capture the moments as I fumble through motherhood, marriage, and my new graphic design career. I am sometimes funny, a bit sarcastic, and always sleep deprived.
Twitter: CorianderPM
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This is so beautiful and candid. I can visualize you both as you describe it
Aw, thanks so much!
Twitter: CourtneyKirklnd
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So sweet. I love those moments…
Oh me too. I just wish that they would last forever.
Twitter: AlisonSWLee
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I have these moments all the time with the baby, especially since Monkey turned 3, and I’m like, whoa, what?
I know. This whole time passing thing sucks.
Twitter: queenofchaosmom
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“I know that you will grow and learn about the world around us, losing your innocence along the way. But I will always look in your eyes and see the tiny baby that you are right now.” You know that guts me, right? That is so true, it hurts. I wish I had been blogging when Nico was little.
I wish I had kept some sort of record when Matthew was little too. Though I know looking back on that today would just kill me.
Twitter: corp2domestic
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I feel the same way right now about my boys..they are so innocent…I just want to keep them that way forever. In my arms protected
I so wish we could do that too. Seeing how quickly my oldest has turned into this teen just guts me.
They always will be perfect to us, won’t they?
Absolutely. Just perfect.
“…losing your innocence along the way…” I hate that that happens. Sigh. Beautiful in-the-moment post.
Watching their innocence slip away is so heartbreaking. I wish we could keep them this small forever.
Miss these adorable baby moments!
I already miss some and he’s still a baby!
Twitter: KristenPGIP
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You pulled at my heart strings with this one. Oh, how I miss those days!
They go far too quickly, don’t they? Sigh..
I look at my daughter who is five and remember holding her when she was so little in my arms. Beautiful entry!
A beautiful moment captures Kimsley. Almost makes me wish L was a baby again. But not enough to want another one.