It’s late at night and the darkness fills the room around us.
You are curled up on my shoulder and I can feel your tiny body wiggle around to find that perfect position.
Your arms reaches down and searches around. Your little fingers find mine and tightly wrapped around them.
At that moment I feel your little body settle in, completely content and secure from the world around you.
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It’s time for you to eat. You curl your little body into the groove of my arm and settle in.
With one hand you reach up and gently touch the side of my face.
Your other hand flails about, searching for that one place.
It reaches out, finally finding my own finger.
Your tiny fingers wrap around mine, and I can feel your body relax and blend into me.
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You’re entering a world that is unfamiliar to you.
There are sounds that you haven’t heard before. Sights that you haven’t seen before.
Unfamiliar people. Unfamiliar surroundings.
Your insecurities are pushing through and I can see the fear settle into your big beautiful eyes.
Instinctively, your hand reaches out and grabs mine.
As your fingers tightly grasp my own, your heart rate slows and I can see the panic drift away.
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To you, I am safe.
I am love and security.
I am a familiar smile when the world turns upside down.
I am a warm embrace when the tears won’t seem to stop.
I am your calm.
I am home.
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Kimberly
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Hi, my name is Kimberly! I am a wife of 1 and mom to 4. I'm a social media addict and book lover. This blog is a raw and honest look at life through my eyes. I capture the moments as I fumble through motherhood, marriage, and my new graphic design career. I am sometimes funny, a bit sarcastic, and always sleep deprived.
Love love love. The sweetness in those finger grabs is nothing but pure, safe, love.
This is one thing that I absolutely miss with my oldest. I wish he still wanted to hold my hand.
Twitter: AlisonSWLee
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Aww, I just love when they grab our hands/ fingers.
Me too. There’s nothing like it.
One of my favorite things was tiny baby hands holding my finger when they ate.
Oh, me too. There is something so sweet about that.
Twitter: corp2domestic
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Wow…just beautiful and so sweet!
Thanks so much, Natalie!
Twitter: queenofchaosmom
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I still love when Gia reaches for my hand or my fingers. I could stare at her little hands and little fingers so proportionate but so tiny and I am amazed that I made her. That she came from me. All in the hands. This post was so sweet…loved it.
I do the same thing – stare at them wondering the same thing. It’s amazing.
Twitter: HillaryMelch
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This may have made my ovaries hurt…just saying. Very lovely post.
Maybe I should put a warning on it?
Thank you!
Love that one finger from you is all he needs.
Me too. As soon as he finds it his whole body calms down. I don’t want it to end!
Twitter: KristenPGIP
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Oh, how I miss that! My favorite moment shared with my girls now that they are older is when they reach for my hand out of the blue. Oh, it makes my heart melt! Treasure these moments. xo
My oldest son is approaching 13 (eek!) so I don’t get this from him much at all anymore. I miss it terribly. He will put his arm on my shoulder though, and that definitely makes my heart happy!
Twitter: GalitBreen
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Home, indeed.
This is beautiful.
(As is your mama love!)
We are so much, but home is definitely top of the list.
Thank you, so so much.
Twitter: copilotmom
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Beautiful. I miss baby fingers holding one of mine. I cherish that memory.
It does go by far too quickly. I wish I could still get this from my oldest.
I have tears in my eyes after reading this. This is what I desperately want to believe that my son and I can share, that connection and I’m terrified that it won’t happen. People keep telling me that it will happen naturally, but I’ve never been around children, so I’m nervous… Beautiful post. Gives me hope.
I was worried about the same thing with mine as well. I understand your worries and concern, but it will happen. You will connect and it will be beautiful!
Twitter: KirstenPiccini
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that picture literally just made me tear up…made me wish for a couple days of just holding a tiny hand.
jacob does it sometimes, when he’s sleeping..he’ll reach out for me and wrap our fingers together…and my heart just melts. Love knowing that I’m still MOMMY for a little longer.
what a glorious time you are part of…for that gorgeous boy and you.
Oh my heart… hands should always be entangled.
Beautiful, Kimberly.
xo
Even with my big kids I still know this feeling when they grab my hand, needing me for something.
It’s a good feeling.
So beautiful!
Twitter: cyu888
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love love love this! That photo is so sweet and the way they clutch our fingers makes my heart melt.